Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Used to Be Enemies


We used to hate each other. Mean comments, whispered insults, and so on. Perfect enemies. We couldn’t stand being near each other; we abhorred each other’s presence. We always argued and referred to each other with despicable terms with no remorse whatsoever. Only to walk back to our friends and talk about each other; about what she had said about me. About what I thought about her; nasty things. Since then, I have tried to stay away from her. Waiting for her to snap, but she hasn’t.
I never thought we could be friends. I still thought those mean things about her, but maybe she did too. It wasn’t until this year, a few weeks ago, that I decided to give her a chance; maybe she had changed. She sat with me at lunch, we talked and talked. We liked and disliked the same things. We laughed about the same things together. All of these things seemed so impossible a few months ago; that we could be friends, or get along so well.
I never thought it would happen, but we’re friends; good friends even. Mehr: My used-to-be enemy is now my friend.

Monday, September 27, 2010

Staying in Touch, Seems Somewhat Out of Reach




Yesterday I talked to Sabrina, but only for a few minutes; the way it always is. She'll log on spontaneously and then have to leave within a couple minutes. I've only talked to her for more than half an hour a few times since she left. We used to talk a lot more, about everything and anything, but now, it seems like we barely have time to talk about anything. Sometimes she'll just tell me that she did something and then log off. Before she left Panama, she assured me that we would talk everyday and that it would be like she had never left. But now the words have become scarce, and the gaps between them, sometimes weeks. With this incredible lack of conversation, I fear she'll forget me. And eventually have no memory of me at all. I miss her so much; I don't have enough time to tell her that. Staying in touch is becoming harder and harder; certainly much harder than I thought it would be.

Sunday, September 26, 2010

They Call Her Miri


Her friends,
think they know her
better than anyone.

Better than I do.
But they don't;
They don't know her
the way I do.

Her friends,
think
they can make her laugh
harder than anyone.
But they can't;
They can't make her laugh
the way I can.

Her friends,
think they've known her
forever.
Longer than any
of her friends.
But they have no idea
how long I've known her.

Her friends,
think they are better friends
than anyone could wish for.
Best friends.
But they aren't.
They haven't been there
for her
when she needed it most.

Miranda,
knows me better than anyone,
and I know her the same.


Miranda,
makes me laugh harder than anyone has,
and I do the same for her.

Miranda,
has known me since I was two,
and I've known her,
since the day she was born.

Miranda is
my best friend. I just hope
she considers me her best friend too.

They call her Miri,
I just call her Sis.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Please Excuse Students Arriving on Extremely Late Bus #3



7:35, the bus picked me up--already late. This is already bending my routine; I normally leave the house at around 7:00 to get to school at around 7:35. I've been much later than usual all week because I have to take the bus. This only happens once in a while but when it does, it makes my life much harder. At least I know that people miss me when I'm late. Just today Diego told me that he needed me to be there early so that he could copy my formula sheet for the math test (which I wouldn't have let him copy anyways) and apparently against his will, he had to copy off of....of...somebody else! God forbid that Diego ever ever has to copy off somebody who is not me ever again!


So back to the bus ride; about 10 minutes after I got on the bus I overheard my bus driver say (in Panamanian): " 'tamos flateados!" This is the unmistakable phrase meaning one thing. Flat tire. We spent at least half an hour watching the driver endeavor to remove the flat tire and failing miserably every time. If that wasn't enough when his hands got all covered in grease, instead of using the restroom of a café right next to the bus, he stood outside palms upward, trying to wash his hands with rain water.

Since, we weren't going to get moving anytime soon, we just sat around and watched a couple of overweight tourists sitting outside the café. They pointed and stared at us without moving at all; it got pretty annoying after a while. When they finally left, we just watched people walk by. They were always either laughing at the bus driver or trying to pretend they didn't notice. But they did, and we could see from their faces that they did. So at around 8:30, another bus came to takes us to school. When we arrived at 8:50 I had already missed all of Spanish and was late to History.

I can't wait for Dad to be back to drop me off at school at a respectable time.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Doesn't Affect a Person's Intelligence

"Dumb Blonde!" people point and laugh. Some blondes even use the color of their hair as an excuse: "My bad! Blonde moment!" Since when does stupidity have anything to do with hair color? Not all blondes are dumb. Two of my best friends are blondes and they have their "moments" but don't we all?

Most blondes don't like being called dumb. In fact, Ally used to be (probably still is) very offended by it. She finds the term abhorrent. Normally, when someone pointed out she had done something "blonde" she would try to ignore it, but afterwards she would be left despondent and need us to tell her that she wasn't stupid. However, if you were unlucky enough to mention it on a bad day, when she was highly irascible, it would probably end in an interminable tirade explaining that your ideas are hopelessly amiss, and near the end entreating you to never refer to her as a dumb blonde again.

This reverberates in your mind and haunts you long after it's over. You could always tell when you were about to be yelled at when she got into her confrontational stance: feet planted firmly at about shoulder-width apart, leaning forward ever so slightly, with one hand on her hip and the other pointing disapprovingly. And Ally was right; she is one of the smartest and most clever girls I've ever met.

Blonds can be wise, give sage advice, and offer profound judgement. Hair color doesn't affect a person's intelligence, affability, or capability.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

That 1 Tank-top

I have a closet and a dresser full of clothing. I have so much that I can't even count them. With all these clothes there is little need to have one that I can't live without, but I do.I have this one shirt I adore. It's this old, size 12, tank-top. It's white with little shimmers on the top and the bottom and it goes with everything. I have like 5 different outfits that depend solely on that top. I buy shirts that go with that top. Whenever it isn't in my closet I go search through the laundry baskets to see if it has been washed yet. I have no idea how that top can still fit me; it's probably because its been worn so many times that it's all stretched out. I'm always telling myself that if I ever find a top like that one, I'll buy five. I'll buy them in all the colors they have available! I just love it. Until I find an identical one, I'll be wearing, washing, and continuing to wear that old, size 12, tank top.

Monday, September 20, 2010

How Many Are Willing to Go This Far?

Friday afternoon, we arrived at the court. Victoria now informs me that I have made a mistake. I meant to say, the clay court. Let me assure you that in tennis there is a very very big difference between cement and clay courts. Just a little while before it had been pouring without any sign of stopping anytime soon. Luckily, the rain had been reduced to either a heavy sprinkle or a light drizzle. The rain had left the courts looking like splotches of red mud with almost unrecognizable white lines etched underneath it. She kept her cool, explaining that clay court dry quickly, while I remained skeptical.

Victoria's coach was late to practice that day, so we had to wait in the "office." Office being a tiny room with a desk and a couple chairs. Of course, all the chairs were taken, leaving us with only one option: the window sill. This sill is probably the most uncomfortable thing you will ever sit on. Saying that half my butt was comfortable would be an exaggeration. This sill allowed for like a fourth of your butt to be on it. I could've been far more comfortable on the floor of the "office," but the red clay dust makes for quite an embarrassing stain on khaki pants.

When the coach finally got there it was still drizzling. Victoria wanted him to wait for the rain to pass so that she could play. So we waited for about half and hour and when we went back out it was still drizzling. She looked around for her coach, but evidently he decided he wasn't going to wait for the rain to clear out and had left quite some time ago. Seeing this Victoria decided we should walk around this portion of road that she runs on to practice her eight-hundred meter race. At first sight the lap seemed pretty small, but when we started walking I saw that the lap was at least three times what I had anticipated.

We walked about a lap and started in the second. My bladder then decided it was full and I really really had to pee. I alerted Victoria and we started walking as fast as we could without looking weird. About half way to the bathrooms we noticed that a huge puddle had developed in the road. We kept walking, determined to get to the bathroom, as if nothing. A car was approaching so we got as close to the curb as we could. If the car had continue to drive in a straight line it would have just cruised by, however in Panama, driving is a game to see who can make everyone's lives much much harder than they have to be.

So, the car turned ever so slightly to the right speeding straight through the puddle and drenching us with nasty and utterly disgusting unidentified liquid. We both screamed rather loudly and stood there motionless in complete shock of what had just happened. We had no where else to go, so we kept walking, soaked in God knows what, until we made it to the bathroom.

As if to make things worse the bathroom was really gross. There was mud on the floor, and none of the stalls were even remotely clean. I settled for the one that had the least mud and the cleanest toilet seat which I covered with about a million layer of toilet paper anyways. I washed my hands, but of course there weren't any paper towels to dry my hands or even to try and wipe of the nasty liquid we had been splashed with.

Victoria, now starving, decided that she wanted to go to some little store to buy something to eat. When we walked in this horrible stench hit me like a ton of bricks. It was like a mix of dead cat and rat. I have never had to hold my breath that long. It was truly disgusting.

I couldn't believe what Victoria was willing to put up with to make to the top if the tennis world. This everyday? I would have quit a long time ago. I had never seen someone so concerned with a recreational activity before. She was so passionate about tennis that she put up with this almost everyday. She must really love it. But I will never understand why anyone would go to such great lengths to play any sport.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Mirror, Mirror


She looked in the mirror.
The cold,
Unforgiving,
Mirror.

Mirror, mirror on the wall…

That exposes what you are;
What you
Look like.

But she,
Sees it differently
Than others do.

Mirror, mirror on the wall…

She
Found a million things wrong
With what she saw.

Mirror, mirror on the wall…

Her hair: greasy, gangly, gross
Her skin: dry, dirty, disgusting
Her lips: slender slivers
Her eyes: uneven, unexceptional, unfavorable

And through her eyes,
She saw

Her soul: doubting, disappointed and turned dormant.


Could there be a fairest one of all?

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Missin' you...







Camila Gomez
15 Amazing Ave.
Charlottesville, VA

September 8, 2010


Dear Sabrina,

How have you been? I was wondering how you were, so I decided to write to you and see how you're doing. I hope you didn't have to modify your routine too much to get used to your new school. Here we all miss your fun-loving, and bubbly disposition. Sometimes people spontaneously say "I miss Sabrina." Sadly, close friends moving is prevalent in Balboa Academy; It's a common recurrence. However, I still believe that it is imperative that we keep in touch and never forget that we are best friends, and soul sisters!

Missing you,
Camila Gomez

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Zip the Lip

I confess
I didn't tell you
because I knew I'd be summoned
to your desk.

You'd ask questions,
use Wordly Wise words.
Say subtle things in class
about it.
Whether the others knew or not.

Asking us if we understood,
when you know we did.
Only us.
We do,
We do understand.
Understand
what you're trying to set up
by saying that.

That's why I didn't tell you.
Why I kept quiet.
Why I didn't mention anything.

I'm sorry I didn't
I know I should have...
maybe.
But at least,
now you know
why I zipped my lips.

Monday, September 6, 2010

Be More Observant!

The normal lunch chatter ended a few minutes before the bell; giving us just enough time to pack up our things and get to class on time. Everyone had finished their brownies, but I hadn't gotten one. We were on our way to science with Mrs. Vallarino when it happened.

"What's on your pants?" asked a janitor with a grimace. In sheer horror, I turned to look, only to find a think brown smear all over the back oh my khaki pants. Oh my God! The brownie!!! I quickly backed up against the wall and begged Sabrina to cover me as I ran to the girls bathroom.

I arrived late to class, in P.E shorts, with an embarrassing pass that said "Girl thing." Not to mention the humiliation of hearing Mrs. Fennel laugh and holler: "Camila! You eat it the other way!"

So for your sake, and mine, look before you walk and most importantly (live by this) look before you sit!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Uneventful...

"What should I write about for my Slice of Life?" I ask Miranda. She pauses, thinks for a little, but obviously didn't think that carefully 'cause the only thing I got out of her was: "What happened to you today?" I roll my eyes at the stupid question. "If I knew about something to write about I would be writing it, Miranda dearest." I glared at her for a couple minutes and then she finally worked up what she probably thinks is a writing prompt.

"Worst teacher ever! Who is it?!"
"Miranda,even if I hated a specific teacher I wouldn't post it on the internet!"
"Oh..." she simply replied. I sat frustrated, and confused. My life is so uneventful, and the things that are important I'm definately not going to post it on a blog...

I never know what to write about. It takes forever to come up with any decent topic.